'Atiqah Yusof- free and unbounded me.

Wednesday, 25 December 2013

Samudra 25/12 ~ TRIO of ARCTIC'S HEROES : the flying superman Kaya, the thunderbolt defender Ashman and the zealous striker Zul @ Ram.

The Samudra came again. The matches of today:

morning : netball + frisbee
evening : futsal (M) + volleyball (F)

And I chose to watch the guys' games today.The frisbee and the futsal. And ya, I did watch the volleyball when my Blue Polar Bear Arctics vs the Red Celtic. It was just because I just feel like watching the guys' games today.

And subhanallah.

The frisbee matches were so fierce. Many players were injured today. I really adored the bonding that the guys have. Whenever they make someone hurts, they will definitely lend their hands, pick him up from the ground and say "sorry". And whatever happens in the court, will stay in the court. It is quite different from the girls' episodes. Usually they can be very emotional, rarely hard to say "sorry", rarely to admit their mistakes...which concludes that the girls are emotional-based. And the guys are more towards rational-based. This what makes me feel happier to mingle with guys,- because they are rational, much much more rational.

*THE FLYING SUPERMAN KAYA*

Subhanallah. This Kaya is amazingly awesome. While running, he could jump, fly, and catch the frisbee disk. He scored many points for my Arctic that everyone was awed by him. This petite, super-fast Kaya is a legend of this century.

*THE THUNDERBOLT DEFENDER ASHMAN*

Ashman is another hero of Arctic. Out of nowhere, he can run and intersect the rival's flying frisbee disc. It is very amusing that he could save many beautiful throws from the rivals. I believe that it is never be easy to be a defender. Well done, Ash!

*THE ZEALOUS STRIKER ZUL @ RAM*

A gift from Allah to Arctic, I should call him. For the volleyball and futsal team. Zul @ Ram is a very skillful fellow/ Today, he is able to control the ball very nicely. Two goals he shot for us today! And he did many assists. Nice, Zul, nice! Who knows that he had just arrived from Malaysia a month ago and now he proudly presents Arctic.

Being a sportwoman is definitely ain't easy. And being a Vice Captain is also not easy.

But I will keep on having the Arctic spirit. I don't care if I am the only one who is left by the stadium or court to support my Arctics.

Me, with always stay by your side my dear Arctics, with passion and love.

~Vice Captain of Arctic, 2013.

Tuesday, 17 December 2013

Menjadi diriku + the struggle.

Menjadi diriku - edcoustic

Tak seperti bintang di langit

Tak seperti indah pelangi

Kerna diriku bukanlah mereka

ku apa adanya

Wajahku memang begini

Sikapku jelas tak sempurna

Kuakui ku bukanlah mereka

Ku apa adanya

Menjadi diriku

dengan segala kekurangan

Menjadi diriku

atas kelebihanku

Terimalah aku

seperti apa adanya

Aku hanya insan biasa

tak mungkin sempurna

Tetap kubangga

atas apa yang dikurnia

Setiap waktu kunikmati

Anugerah hidup yang kumiliki.

*I always love this song. But i never have the chance to listen it in full and clear version until one day i listened to it from Aidan's laptop.

Subhanallah.

This song is so matched with my situation now.

Hurt.
Truly hurt.
By the people here.

It is very funny and immature of some of the people here who feel uncomfortable with the way i express and address myself.

They do not like me being extrovert.
They do not like me being super dupe active.
They do not like me being brave and curious.
Above all,
They do not like me being different.

I just do not understand why they have to bother my life so much. I did not touch their business, hence i hope that they can leave me alone. Madam Vidya is the Students' Affair Officer here in USM-KLE, Belgaum. She is a psychologist. I had met her many times to deal with all this matter. She told me, a group of people often came to see her and reported about me.

"You are absolutely normal in our (Indian) community. But the Malays think u are abnormal."
"They wanted you to be prescribed with psychiatric patients medication."
"They complained that you are dominant and bossy."
"They did not like the way you look at people."
"The Malays love to gossip. You just ignore them. Do not bother by them."
"They cannot accept that you are extra extrovert- a very outgoing one."
"They had came for the third time to complain about you."
"They came in group. About 4-5 people in a group."

Astaghfirullah. I do not know on what earth are these type of people exist.

I am facing this. Struggling with my pain on my spine due to kyphoscoliosis and struggling with my recovery period from my 5-months severe depression. Yes, i gonna face this.

Oh Allah, please make me stronger. For You, Allah, i'm going to be strong. (74:7)