Menjadi diriku + the struggle.

Menjadi diriku - edcoustic 

Tak seperti bintang di langit

Tak seperti indah pelangi 

Kerna diriku bukanlah mereka

ku apa adanya

Wajahku memang begini

Sikapku jelas tak sempurna

Kuakui ku bukanlah mereka

Ku apa adanya

Menjadi diriku

dengan segala kekurangan

Menjadi diriku

atas kelebihanku

Terimalah aku

seperti apa adanya

Aku hanya insan biasa

tak mungkin sempurna

Tetap kubangga

atas apa yang dikurnia

Setiap waktu kunikmati

Anugerah hidup yang kumiliki.

*I always love this song. But i never have the chance to listen it in full and clear version until one day i listened to it from Aidan's laptop.

Subhanallah.

This song is so matched with my situation now.

Hurt.
Truly hurt.
By the people here.

It is very funny and immature of some of the people here who feel uncomfortable with the way i express and address myself.

They do not like me being extrovert.
They do not like me being super dupe active.
They do not like me being brave and curious.
Above all,
They do not like me being different.

I just do not understand why they have to bother my life so much. I did not touch their business, hence i hope that they can leave me alone. Madam Vidya is the Students' Affair Officer here in USM-KLE, Belgaum. She is a psychologist. I had met her many times to deal with all this matter. She told me, a group of people often came to see her and reported about me.

"You are absolutely normal in our (Indian) community. But the Malays think u are abnormal."
"They wanted you to be prescribed with psychiatric patients medication."
"They complained that you are dominant and bossy."
"They did not like the way you look at people."
"The Malays love to gossip. You just ignore them. Do not bother by them."
"They cannot accept that you are extra extrovert- a very outgoing one."
"They had came for the third time to complain about you."
"They came in group. About 4-5 people in a group."

Astaghfirullah. I do not know on what earth are these type of people exist.

I am facing this. Struggling with my pain on my spine due to kyphoscoliosis and struggling with my recovery period from my 5-months severe depression. Yes, i gonna face this.

Oh Allah, please make me stronger. For You, Allah, i'm going to be strong. (74:7)